Maybe I Read Too Much Romance Fiction.
I didn't how it started nor when I started believing one day I will magically meet my soulmate, the love of my life and eventually happily ever after.
While I was a teenager, I saw my two sisters attracted to a person they called a crush. Then I thought, oh, I will have a crush too then I follow an upperclassman who plays basketball. Such a cliche.
During university, I got my first broken heart. I took it badly yet my family and relatives keep telling me, that one day I will meet someone that loves me unconditionally.
Then both my older sisters married. My family and relatives start asking me, do I have a boyfriend? When will I get married? I just smile. That was the time my last relationship ended, not even a serious relationship.
After that, there is no relationship at all. For many years, it was just a fling. That ended up me crying because I had too many expectations.
Still, my friends keep telling me the same thing over and over, that one day I will meet someone that loves me unconditionally. Perhaps for me to not lose hope, to keep looking for this person, or just to make me feel not left out.
Now I'm in my thirties. The theory of soulmate has faded. I am beginning to realise the complexity of thought.
How can I wish for a perfect relationship while sometimes I feel imperfect?
How can I offer a wonderful relationship, while most of the time I feel lack confidence and am not capable enough?
However, no matter how much thought pops up in my head. I still somehow want one person to be true, to be with me, to be my soulmate. Even though I am consciously aware that the theory was probably just because I and the entire human race believe it through romance fiction.
Originally I had a long conversation about my relationship with this guy I met through a dating app not long ago. We haven’t met in person, not sure if we will plan to meet soon. Probably because both of us are afraid to put our hearts out just to be broken again, so we keep what we are best at right now.
Anyway, I plan to post one story a week on my page, but I failed, since lately work is using my time a lot. But hey, at least I try.
Thanks for reading this thought of mine. Bye!